Smashing

The small geode in this picture is the only unbroken one I still have.

As a child, my cousins and I would spend summer days prowling the Des Moines river and streams around Bonaparte, Iowa for geodes, littering the banks with the broken flotsam of 'duds' and carrying our crystal treasures up the hill to Grandmas house as if we had struck gold.

Those were happy times, but not all of my childhood was like that. Over the past couple of weeks I have been doing energy work and guided meditations -  focusing, working very hard to find and remove blockages that are preventing me from manifesting the life I want and the abundance I need to live it.

Not surprisingly, in hindsight, I found something in my very early childhood that I have always known of without realizing the deep rooted effect it has had on me. Without going into boring details, because of this, I have always had deeply imprinted feelings of inadequacy and low self-esteem, which simply means that, in spite of all the mechanisms I have developed to compensate, I have never really believed I deserve to have the things, or the life I've dreamed of.

Don't get me wrong. I love my life now. I live in a place I never want to leave. I have made wonderful friends and met someone I believe will be important to me for a very long time; and I got here by following my heart and intuitions. I didn't always know - heck, I never knew - what the actual reasons for those intuitions were, but I've learned, especially over the past few years, to listen closely and act on them when appropriate.

Lately they've been telling me I've got this, and to begin to pay attention to anything pointing me in the direction of living the life I want with the freedom I need to be happy. I had never heard of abundance blocks before, but that's now in the past. I've since learned what mine are, how to take consistent action to get rid of them, and I think I've made good progress over the past week or so - but I've been hammering on it and thinking about it way too much! So I decided this weekend I wasn't gonna think about it....you know, let it go, and I was, until this morning when I got out of bed.

This little geode has always been kept with my other altar stones, unbroken, as a symbol of the earth and it's unseen mysteries.

Until this morning, I had never given thought to breaking it. Suddenly, out of the blue, it is now a symbol of the negative energies of my childhood and I know it is time to release them. As a symbol of earth abundance and prosperity, intuition also tells me that breaking it will symbolically release those abundance blocks.

Even with all that certainty, I was still amazed to find the perfect stone for this particular ritual waiting at the foot of the stairs to my apartment. I'd never noticed it before, except to note that the most amazing smelling pineapple chamomile grows around it all summer.

The geode was solid and took four good whacks before it broke. The pieces flew and I had to search through dead leaves to find them. When I did, I felt that I wasn't done yet, so I hit the larger piece again, twice, and it relented.

My effort revealed pure white quartz druzy that sparkles in the sunshine, bright as today's new snow - so beautiful....so, has anything changed?

Well....I feel lighter; and I feel happy that there was crystal inside and not dust, as if that is a good omen.

As kids, my cousins and I opened many geodes of all sizes and found iron dust or dirt instead of the coveted crystals, so after holding on to this little gem for so many years in honor of its mystery, I feel honored to be moved to release the negativity it held for me and reveal its beauty today.

I won't keep the pieces as that energy is no longer mine. Tonight's waning moon will take it with her and the stone is given back to the earth.

Now it's time to make some lists and get to work.....

Namaste

Dating and Quantum Theory

What does being conscious mean to you? I saw this question on a dating site and thought ok, really? Well, that’s a good question. Don’t get me started….  too late.

According to various dictionaries, consciousness is the state of being physically awake and aware of your surroundings. Ok. Awake and aware of which surroundings? The chair you’re sitting in? The car you’re driving? That sweet Harley and rider scooting down main street? The pile of dirty laundry on the floor? The shenanigans down at city hall? The activities of your family and friends? Your connection to the universe?

What?! Wait. Whoa now! My connection with the universe? You mean with God? My religion?

Well, sort of. More God, I think, than religion. Most western religions were created for political reasons and aren’t aware of much in my opinion. But the way I understand God, by whatever name you call her, she is the life force of the universe, also known as Source or the ALL and lots of other names besides.

Ok, so with that said, follow me and hold on tight because I’m goin’ off the ranch and right into the Fire Swamp! 

All matter, including you and me and the ROUS’s, is made up of atomic structures. Some of these structures are fairly familiar to most of us, i.e. atoms with their basic protons and electrons, positive and negative charges etc. Science knows pretty well what most solid matter is made up of, and we know that those spinning electrons and such make all matter vibrate at one frequency or another. The atoms that make up denser stuff like rocks vibrate more slowly, while those that make up, say you or me, vibrate more quickly. Heat intensifies vibration and cold slows it down. Pretty basic stuff right?

Right. So, some other tiny bits of the universal fabric are less well known, quarks, neutrinos and such and this is way oversimplified but neutrinos make up torsion fields, torsion fields are subject to spin theory (means they can be manipulated) and it gets really technical from there. But you, my friend, may actually be familiar with torsion fields, because they are generally equivalent to the ‘ether’ or ‘aether’ studied and postulated upon by none other than Plato and Aristotle, among other more recent postulators. 

Of course ancient Greek philosophers didn’t have the capability to physically study quantum parts, but they did come to the logical (and since well-studied) conclusion that something fills the spaces in solid matter. Atoms and molecules vibrate but they don’t move through space. The Ether describes the energy/information bearing ‘magic pixie dust’ that fills the spaces between all those vibrating atoms and their parts. More specifically, ether carries information, not mass, which is what makes it very difficult to study. 

My own K.I.S.S. (um, Keep It Simple Stupid) theory is that ether simply carries information relative to the area or physical structure whose spaces it occupies. So anyway….

Native Americans knew this. The Celts of pre-Christian Wales and the Druids knew this. I’m sure other ancient civilizations knew this also. What they knew/know is that all things are alive, even rocks; because ether is the connection of all things to all other things - ultimate consciousness. Now I’m not saying that a rock is physically aware or can think, but each type of crystal matrix does produce its own energy that can often be physically felt. The vibrational frequencies of specific crystals are known and whether one uses a crystal for a specific purpose or simply admires it for its awesome beauty, it has its own power.

Have you ever touched a tree and felt its life force? What you feel is the vibration of the physical molecular structure of the tree plus the living ether that moves through it into your hand when you touch it. Again, it is in everything, in us. Even when the tree dies, the physical parts continue to vibrate, more slowly, and with help from other tiny living creatures, breaks down the molecules of the tree into the living loam of the forest floor. Energy cannot be destroyed, only changed. 

I believe that cycle, that particular energy in its purest form comes from source. It is the interconnectedness of all things, all life, the power of nature and, I think, the reason we as human beings are drawn to nature. The living forests, mountains, oceans, rivers, deserts, plains and wildlife are part of us far more than the (also vibrating and ether filled) concrete jungles in which many of us live.

As for dating, on a smaller scale, as with everything else, each of us vibrates at our own specific frequency, and maybe with exceptions, no other person shares your exact vibrational frequency. Finding the ones or the one who matches it closely is how we choose our tribe or our partner - and often why relationships can be so weird; but if you think about it, when you meet someone - anyone - and your vibration and theirs are similar, according to my theory of consciousness, that means something, and you're going to mean something to each other. 

And that, my friends, is what being conscious means to me. It is being connected to source and grounded by science. It is also quite possibly the reason I seldom date. Now if you’ll excuse me I need to go polish the chrome on my motorcycle.  Somewhere in the trees I missed a fire spout pop and got singed a bit. Cheers!